This is basically the email I sent to Patrick venting and apologizing for being grumpy…..this explains my mood to a “T” atm.

Sorry I’m such a grump.
I left the house and it’s a complete total mess- dishes all over the counters/sink
and trash all over. Toys everywhere and things just a mess.
Had to fight with the dogs / chase them all
over this morning, had Braysen wake up to Pinot this morning. I got a
coffee and the people didn’t put the lid on well so I spilled that on
myself a bit. This is after trying to find something to wear knowing I
would have to wear my most “summer” type of clothes the rest of the
week..which I don’t have much to wear. I’m grumpy .I just want some new
shirts and I want my house clean. I don’t want to have to go out to
dinner or even cook dinner tonight or even clean for family to come
over.

We have to finish getting the house taped and ready for Wed.
Katie said we should just call up and have them reschedule but then they
have less time to fix their crap before the year is up (although I think
they have to fix everything regardless whether the year is up – based
upon what you find on the appt.) It’s hard enough getting them to call
back / schedule appts. Let alone reschedule.

I don’t want company tonight, I don’t want to clean tonight
and honestly I’m dreading having to go out to dinner or host dinner…
because either way we have to clean the house / cook or we have to entertain
kiddo at the worst place to eat at. Everytime we go to *name omited*
I don’t get to eat. I have to get my stuff boxed to eat at home…
which is NOT enjoyable. Kiddo eats like crap too because I bring
every sweet / non-healthy item with us that he’s
interested in just to keep him occupied long enough for the dinners to
come out. I can only imagine how long it’ll take for dinner to get to
us tonight with another person there.

I’m sorry to unload….this day just sucks arse so far and the afternoon
looks just as bad. I want to go home and take kiddo to the pool..not
worry about cleaning / dishes / toys / walk-thru appts. / family coming over to
get their dog / or having to find food to pack up for dinner out.

Woof Woof!

I woke up Friday morning to Patrick telling me Neeva was gone. We went in panic mode. He drove around the area calling for her and I went to work on emailing our neighborhood about her being lost. I made a flyer and headed into work. Patrick was watching Braysen Friday so Katie could have a day off and they headed off to Coos Bay early. I got into work, tired and groggy from spending all night sniffling and feeling like crap after sitting up on an allergy ridden farm (a beautiful view and farm but I was miserable) for dinner the night before and to top it off – we lost Neeva. I had planned on going into work and then leaving after to hit up the shelters, animal control, vets and then put flyers everywhere I could think of in hopes of finding her. Instead, I came into work and left shortly after with the go ahead from my nice boss. I made all the rounds with my flyers and hit up the vets / shelters with no word of Neeva. Around 11:30 (1/2 hour before the county animal control opens) I received a call from a neighbor, also a local police sheriff, who told me that he believed our dog had been picked up in McMinnville earlier that morning. We thanked him and at noon headed into to see if she was indeed the dog picked up. There laying quietly in the kennel was Neeva and $60 fine later we had our doggy back. They couldn’t find her chip (they didn’t scan low enough) but have written down where it’s located for future records. Hopefully, this isn’t a future occurrence. Patrick secured the area under the gate where she dug out by pouring concrete along the fence line so she can’t dig out through that. Now, we are in the hunt for a possible playmate for our Neeva girl. We think that’s a big reason why she ran off. She’s had a playmate visiting lately, a golden puppy that belongs to our friends. and she seems a bit sad after Lotus leaves. We wanted to wait until Braysen was older so she could help pick out his new puppy but we aren’t sure if we’ll wait that long after all. Finding the right fit for our family is the hard part. Neeva has an amazing personality and we want another doggy that can match that.

Do you ever feel like others plan your week out before you have the chance to plan it yourself? Some weeks I feel like we have a million things we are doing without it actually being something I “schedule” us to do. This week is one is going to be one of those weeks and it’s stressing me out before Monday has even really begun. At times I enjoy the social activities, the dinners, the jaunts to the coast, the family time and on the other hand I just want a weekend to ourselves – Peace and Quiet.

We have all these plans for the backyard, the house, the garage and places I’d like to see this summer (I haven’t even gone downtown Portland, or the Saturday market, or the Waterfront..all places I’d love to see). For weekends now, someone pulls us this way or that way. As Patrick says, we can say “No” but that is a hard word for me. I don’t know, I’m so damn non-confrontational about everything and I realize that more then ever. I never used to be this way, I could stand up and say it how it is but now I hide behind things and don’t speak my mind on half of what pisses me off. It’s the whole “choose your battles” syndrome.

This week is not only 4th of July but a week with family. Let’s start off with the “schedule” of the week.
Monday – working until 1:00, landscaper appt. @ 2:00, store trip @ some point
Tuesday – working until 1:00, friends coming out to sign house papers so visit with them
Wednesday – (4th of July) setting fence posts with FIL, neighborhood bbq @ 5:30 ~ ??
Thursday – drop Mazda off for service @ 8:30am, Me work 9-1, Patrick goes with his dad to the airport to pick up James, picks up Mazda after, dinner at IL’s friends place
Friday – work 9-1 (was going to take off but not now), Patrick goes off with his brother for drinks (don’t get me started)
Saturday – driving to the coast with the family
Sunday – day off??? We need to start taping and marking the house for our 1 year anniv. warranty walk-thru.
*this doesn’t sound so bad but with a toddler things are way more complicated, although I’d never complain about having Braysen in my life!!!!*

We have had big plans for our backyard and have accomplished very little so far. It’s starting to bug me to say the least. The landscapers that the builder used didn’t exactly do the greatest job in preparing our yard for grass & mulch, they basically mowed the weeds and laid everything down on top. So, this spring our weeds were out of control to say the very least. We’ve spent quite a few hours on them but with raining weekends and only being able to work on it when kiddo is napping we are in a losing battle atm. We had a neighbor (who recently moved) offer to help us with our dog run fencing but he has since disappeared basically and we are going to do it ourselves. This Wed. we are finally setting the posts for it and hopefully that will be finished in the next 2 weeks.

I have a landscaper coming out to give me a quote on our deck (or patio since we are now checking into the cost of that – another topic that I do NOT want to get into). We’ll see how much that is going to set us back and maybe see what they quote us on terracing our slope with different levels of beds. I’d like for us to just buy the materials and pay labor but we’ll see how this all works. I’ve never had to work with a landscaper before and I want to get a few more quotes also after this guy. We’ve talked of just doing it ourselves too but finding the time for all this crap is near impossible lately!

This summer has been honestly miserable with rain. This is the first week that it’s going to be especially warm and nice. I really don’t know how I’m going to stand living in Oregon for the rest of my life – I have told Patrick this too…between the weather and some other issues …I really think I need out after I finish school but we’ll see.

I’m just happy that I have some friends in the neighborhood to talk to about my rants and ramblings. That’s probably why I don’t vent so much on here anymore. I find myself with less time on the computer to type this all. It feels good to type it out though!

News Link for Recall

This is one of the most popular toddler snack foods out there right now and we have been giving this to Braysen for a while because he loves it. Well, I had to throw away our bag last night and then I started thinking about our last hospital trip when he was having high fevers, explosive diapers non-stop and overall sickly….the docs couldn’t figure out which virus or infection he had but it makes me wonder. Regardless, I’m happy that he’s healthy now and doesn’t show any signs of being sick atm.

Soooo if you do know what Veggie Booty is ~ throw your bags away.

Put a little boogy in it!
or how about this one?
“Men should be like Kleenex, soft, strong and disposable.”

Braysen decided to raid the Kleenex box while I was getting ready for work earlier this week. I think he got at least ½ the box out on the floor before I took it away and made him a very grumpy little man! You’ll see in some of the pics that he actually puts the Kleenex up to his nose and blows out. He saw his daddy doing it last month or so ago and actually does pretty well at blowing his snot out into it. Sometimes he grabs paper towels, napkins, toilet paper and just blows ..even with no snot in his nose. Such a funny lil kiddo!

Blowing his nose after raiding the Kleenex box

Today he scared the sh** out of me. I was upstairs getting ready for work and I had taken him up with me to change his diaper but I guess I didn’t latch the gate (when have I forgotten to latch the gate? I mean I ALWAYS do it!!) Who knows what went on in my mind but I forgot. I came out of the bedroom and am calling his name because it’s soooo quiet and this is very rare folks! I look over and the gates open, my heart races and I look down the stairs and there he is backing down all slow like and almost all the way down to the bottom. By the time I got to him he was at the bottom gate. WHEW, I can’t even tell you how happy I was that he actually went down backwards and didn’t fall. I was scared to death….mom without a brain award goes to me that morning!

I started Yoga last week and LOVE LOVE LOVE it! I am taking it as a “class” for credit even. Guess I’m officially back in school, if you want to call it that. I actually need (3) credits from this area – HHP: Health and Human Performance so figured why not. It was a cheap $50 course for me and is until August plus it is something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. Yoga is much more intense then I thought it would be though and definitely more of a workout then the relaxing side I thought it would be. I realize I also that I haven’t completely lost my flexiblity but hopefully that and my balance will improve. The poses we did today were brutal but it seemed like I finally was figuring out the poses, flow and where my body position should be.

Because of Yoga my hours have been completely wierd, plus my boss has been trying to use up her well needed vacation time since campus is kind of quiet. I did get to take guppyman to the pool today before putting him down for his afternoon nap. He went underwater about 6 times and only 2 of them I counted 1,2,3 and put him under a bit. The other times he dunks his own head or face down and even was reaching under for the diving stick I had in my hand. He’s going to be a fish yet!! He gets so happy in the water and he does this goofy frog / dolphin lunge kick thing when you hold him under his belly. It’s so damn cute…what a true guppy!

All Smiles To End With!

(as always ~ images are thumbnailed so you can click to see larger versions!)