Well my website was down for a week and things were kinda chaotic at work and irl so I haven’t had much of a time for a new update until today – which is actually just a break from the chaos at work.  It seems that people are no longer in certain positions and my boss is picking up some slack meaning I get more stuff.  Plus, we are a bit overwhelmed in our grants dept. so I’m helping them out on projects.  Not to mention, all the tickler systems I have set up monitoring this that or the other.  But enough of my work, which by the way I still love!!

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Last weekend we took Neeva up to Lake Tahoe.  She did sooooo well in the car on the way up.  She just laid down in the back of the car on the blanket I put down for her.  No reason to put a kennel in there yet because she can’t jump over the seats yet.  We went to a dog beach up there that is pretty popular and immediately we noticed tons of people with dogs (labs mainly) playing fetch in the water etc.  Lake Tahoe is seriously one of the coldest lakes I’ve ever been in so these people and dogs are nuts!   It was a nice day, not too hot but just right.  Neeva liked playing in the water but didn’t really do the deep water swimming thing.  I got her to wade out into deeper water but she wasn’t too thrilled.  I think she’ll do better at a lake with warmer water and with us actually swimming with her.  All sorts of people kept coming over and asking what she was and telling how beautiful of a dog she is.  That was pretty cool especially since there’s not a ton of Malamutes around this area so it’s a different looking dog to most people. 

Some random pics  of Tahoe and then her kennel.  (spoiled dog)

 

      

 

Sunday was kinda of a lazy day full of well relaxing.  We rented some movies and borrowed one from our neighbor so kept myself pretty occupied with lounging since we finally had a weekend to ourselves after the parents weekends we’ve had recently.  (which I do love the parents coming to town but it was nice to not have to entertain, clean up or have a million things to do).

 

Now, I’ve put this entry on friends only because of what I’m about to talk about which seems just well a little too personal for everyone to read.   Since my miscarriage I’ve endured horrible cycles and my period / body all whack.  My first period finally came at the end of March (about 7 weeks after my miscarriage, which is normal).  We were told we could try right away so we have been.  Unfortunately, my next period didn’t come until oh almost 50 days later which we assume I didn’t ovulate in.  I had called the doctor and they wanted to jump start me with progesterone which would start my period for me.   I had put off picking up the pills and wala my period came finally.  The next month I took birth control for 7 days then stopped in hopes, they said, of cycling me for this time.  Well it looks like it worked.  I had my period after the birth control almost immediately (20 day cycle that time around, short but it was forced). 

 

So, that puts me where I’m at now.  I have been taking my damn temperature every flipping morning *sighs* and sadly I went from my normal waking time of 7:00 to 6:00am so my times effected my temps. just a little bit but not much.  On top of that, I had to take ovulation tests (talk about throwing away $$) to find out if I truly was ovulating this month and when.  All of this, I had to read up on after recommendation from my doctor in “Taking Charge of Your Fertility”  (which is actually a very good book I’m finding out).  Thing is, I never wanted to be the type of person that had to chart all these things and be almost neurotic about it.  I wanted it to just happen.  It did just happen in December damn it..but now my body is a mess and I’m having to do this.  Hopefully this is a good sign though with this current cycle that I’m back to normal.   

 

Basically ….I had an ovulation test come back positive Monday and Tuesday (tues. might have caught the tail end of my surge ..i’m not going to explain everything hehe) but anyhow.  We did time things “right” to actually get me pregnant.  In fact we’ve been nymphos to be blunt and not just because we are trying to get me pregnant.  It’s just nice not worrying about me getting pregnant since I’ve been off the pill for like 2 years almost just so we could get me pregnant faster.  Well….now I’m stuck in a wait ..the dreaded “2 week wait or 2ww” as some call it.  I’ll know on Father’s Day weekend if I am indeed prego again or if we are back to day 1 trying again.   In the meantime, I’m stuck using this website www.fertilityfriend.com to monitor different signs and such of my body.  Just crossing my fingers that over the next 2 weeks my temperature rises and stays up and welp in the end I’m prego.  /shrug If not, I know I’m young and can try again. 

 

I don’t know why I’m telling everyone this but I had to get it out and tell someone.  I found out yesterday too, that Patrick’s boss’s wife is having a girl.  She is only 10 weeks behind what I should’ve been so it makes me a bit sad to say the least.  She went through a lot more then I have to get pregnant though.  I guess I look at some people that are so easily blessed and am like wtf, why me?  I have a good job, good education, my husband has a great job, we own a house etc etc.   We are very blessed to not have to worry about their college education as Patrick’s parents are setting up trust funds for 2 kids for their whole college paid for.  I guess it just seems like we are in the right time in our lives but yet, things aren’t happening yet.  I should be patient I know but J I turned 28 recently damn it!!!!  I just guess since my miscarriage i’ve been terrified that I won’t have kids or it will be harder for me or take longer then I want.

 

 Well back to work or something sorry to ramble and i’m sure it got pretty long and well maybe tmi for most.

 

hugs

heather

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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