Well today I am driving Patrick to the airport so he can fly off to Vegas for his bachelor party. Nothing like a rowdy group of guys in Vegas for a 4 day Bachelor party to make me feel at ease! Actually, surprisingly I’m quite calm about this whole thing and most the guys at work and friends just think I’m completely nuts. Personally, I’ve always thought that if you are marrying someone you should have complete trust and why should there even be a question about letting your man party away with his friends. Now, this was also my thought before the party turned into 4 days but hey I’m still a trusting fiancé. I hope he has a good time and am really quite happy for him since he’ll be with people he hasn’t seen for a long time. It’s also bringing together him and his brothers, which I’m not sure how long it’s been since they had a few days to party together away from everything.

Anyhow, so with the thought that I didn’t want to sit at home and just be bored or let my creative imagination get the best of me with thoughts of their escapades I decided to go away. I called up my friend (old co-worker) Liana and asked her if she wanted to head to San Francisco this weekend. No twisting her arm, nothing ..just a flat out yes. I made us hotel reservations downtown so we can just walk/cab/trolley whatever around. We’ll head out after work tomorrow so I’m sure we’ll get in there somewhat late but it’s only a 4 hour drive so that isn’t bad at all. In fact, I’m wondering why I haven’t driven out there before this. I’m sure it’ll be a fun time and hopefully Liana and I can stay out of trouble. (we’ve had problems in the past hehe)

Hugs
Heather

Found these bags for the girls in the wedding.  In them they will have their jewelry I bought them, the flip flops from old navy I got them (so they can have something comfy to wear while dancing the night away) and some misc bath & body lotion type of stuff and a candle.  I did get myself one of these bags to take on the honeymoon tho. I think they will make great summer beach or pool type of bags! 

I’m on a good wedding planning spree!  It’s also keeping me from ranting about work (speaking of which, I spent 2 hours today in a netmeeting/conference call on things that I could’ve figured out myself.).  Also, I found out next week they are upgrading our server in San Jose and our Network guy told me i’ll be hearing from him a lot during that time and have to be helping him transition over our office. JOY JOY…did I tell you that besides accounting i’m the local network/computer fix it girl? 

House – won’t even start on this but to say – arranging for a meeting with the sales lady and the superintendent this weekend hopefully to get some needed answers / explainations regarding our 8 week delay and pratcially nothing being done on the house.

Back to my lil details….trying to figure out if I have the budget for 2 big pots of flowers at the altar area where we’ll be standing.  lol.  I just can’t get enough of the damn flowers.  I think out of everything i’m most excited to see how they turn out because this lady does amazing work. 

Till later ~

oh one last thing our cake serving set that Patrick picked out from his jeweler. (used my scanner to get this pic) hehe

Kind of bad images when shrunk but they are really pretty!  The earrings are more clear crystal then the pink they look.

I hope the girls like them.

~Heather

Long weekends never seem long enough!

Back from another Memorial Day weekend and another adventure to < ?xml:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />Oregon. Actually, it wasn’t really an adventure ..unless you would like to hear the bird killing stories or the near Bald Eagle killing on the road or even the butterfly slaughters. 

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To keep from posting lots of text to friends

We got on the road Friday around 2:30/3 after I managed to get myself out of work early.  Patrick was a grumpy puss about us getting out late but his mood got better after we decided to stay in Klamath Falls, Oregon for the night instead of driving all the way.  I do admit, that was the best decision we made.  The Shilo Inn’s are very nice and we rented a movie in the room to watch after our dinner.  Eurotrip is so stupid it’s funny.  I was surprised to see what a small town Klamath is compared to say Boulder where I went to school.  Patrick graduated from OIT there and no way could I imagine myself in a college town like that.  It was eye opening and now I do see why he played so much EQ while there hehe. 
 
The next morning we were on the road again and got to his parents house around 2.  Without much delay there we hopped in the car and headed off to look at wedding bands at his parents jeweler.   Suprisingly, I’ve been on the hunt also for wedding cake servers and Patrick spotted a really nice set that I ended up buying.  It wasn’t anymore expensive then the one I liked that was discontinued.    The guy started pulling rings for Patrick to try on and he ended up picking out one that looks somewhat similar to this one except I think he had the colors switched.  I just wanted to buy him something he liked.  He’d ask me what I liked and I just kept telling him “pick something you like”.  That’s all that matters in the end.  I kicked him out of the store while placing the order so I could say what I wanted engraved on the ring and then I completely blanked out on what I wanted it to say so ended up with something cheesy

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The Ring style basically..very close I think

That evening we went out with some of his parents family friends for Mexican and margaritas.  We called it a night fairly early which was nice.  I was pretty much exhausted the whole weekend.  
 
Sunday we headed to Salem to visit my aunt, uncle and my grandparents.  My granny and papa had driven up from Colorado so it was a really really nice visit.  Granny showed me pictures of all my cousins. I can’t believe how old everyone is or well how old that makes me feel to see my cousins graduating from high school now.  It was definitely worth the trip just to see all of them.  I haven’t seen my aunt and uncle in ages either.  

The thing is….I look and wonder if I’ve ever made my family proud or my grandparents. I hear the stories about my cousins and their scholarships or this and that.  I look back at my own school days. I didn’t go to a small town school.  I sometimes wonder if I had gone to a small school if things with me would’ve been different.    I know it’s not good to look back at your past but as I grow older I just think I really must’ve let my family down in so many ways.  It eats me up sometimes when I hear about how well everyone is doing and then I wonder what they say about me.  I’m going to finish my graphics communications degree and I think anyone that knows me it’s not for lacking of wanting…it’s for lack of having the money or means to do so.  I’m hoping that maybe then some of my family will be proud of that accomplishment.  I look at growing up and at all the problems or just events that happened and just get sad.  I don’t pull the “why me” thing because I know others in the world have had worse.  I try to look at the present and future and say to myself “I’m lucky”.  I am lucky in many ways and I do know this….it’s not that I don’t realize what I do have.  I just am sad that I let people down in my life.   I’m especially sad because it’s family that I’ve let down and sometimes I can just see the disappointment.  What people don’t realize sometimes is that it hurts me sometimes to feel like this.  I got a card for my birthday before I left for the trip and in it my step-mom said she was proud of me…..I honestly started to tear up reading that card.  I don’t think anyone knows how much that can mean to me. 
 
I wish honestly that sometimes I would type more happy thoughts but really it’s not that I’m unhappy.  It’s just these things that pop into my head sometimes and I just need to vent and move on.  I don’t hold onto the negatives ..only try to make “something good come out of the bad”.  
 
~end sappy teary emotional thoughts~

 

The drive back was uneventful unless you want to hear about the Bald Eagle story where we almost hit one.  We are driving through Southern Oregon and this HUGE bird swoops down a ways in front of us.  I mean dive bombs down.  I’m just watching in awe really because it looked huge.  The thing is on the right hand lane of the road picking at some dead thing splattered when we start driving up.  As we approach the dumb arse thing moves into our lane before taking flight and honestly I don’t think I’ve ever seen a bird this big.  That’s when Patrick told me what it was.  It was amazing…I was too slow on the camera to get a picture and so wish we’d have turned around to get one.

 

Now if you could see my “to do list” for the next 2 months you’d see a never ending list of last minute plans that I am realizing take a lot of time, correspondence and patience.

I did finally work on wedding stuff last night, I ordered the girls necklaces and matching earrings that a lady custom made for them.  I’ll create a friends only entry here that those people can view them from so if you aren’t my friends list ..out of luck hehe.  I ordered my guestbook from www.guestbookstore.com  and I think that will be a fun alternative to the normal guestbooks that people just sign as they walk in.  

I’m in this email back and forth mess regarding my room reservations and the fact that I just was popped with a contract to sign a few months ago.  Found out today some of my rooms were cancelled…..um…I called her up and cleared up that mess and the 2 night min. stay confusion.  She had cancelled my reservation for rehearsal dinner night that I have booked for Rain and I.  I also had it reserved for the next night so Rain and Sarah would have a place to crash afterwards.  It’s somewhat cleared up minus the contract 10 room thing but I feel a little better about things.

~heather / sav