Archive for May, 2004

boring nights

Sunday, May 16th, 2004

Today’s ramblings are seriously for the bored..as they are just that…BORING…

I woke up at like 9:30 this morning hearing Patrick up and yapping on the phone so I came in to see what was up for the day. With nothing going on, I went back to sleep until 1:00. Yep, I was a little tired from the week.

We decided to drive out to see the house and basically they are just now going to be able to start working on it again. It’s sad to see the other houses down the road, which were just lots 4 weeks ago, now framed. One of them even further along then ours even so that’s a bummer. We were about on par with our neighbors house who has walls, a driveway etc…now we are so far behind :(

After the depressing house trip it was off to Reno to hit the mall, which just ended up being a bleh trip and a small purchase from VS. Onto Keva Juice since he was craving it and then a brief stop as his brothers. We haven’t been to their house since they moved in so was nice to see them all settled in and the paint job they did is really really nice looking. Very similar to how I want to paint, in the neutral colors they chose.

Tonight I decided to kick my arse into gear and workout. Last night while out shopping I bought some weights and one of those lovely yoga balls that i’ve been wanting for a while. I’m convinced I overdid it a bit tonight as my legs from wall squats with this ball are killing me. I’m sure my arms will hurt tomorrow but feel good now. I just am convinced that I need to get my lazy arse into shape.

going to cut out this getting to know you question thingy I wrote answers down for ..cause it’s insanely long but damn I was bored so did it.


What time did you start this?: 10:36
Name?: Heather
Date of birth?: May 27th
Sex?: female
Height?: 5’7 1/2
Eye color?: green
Weight?: no comment
A place I call home?: now Nevada but in many ways Colorado still
Where were you born?: Colorado
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Fiance so yes
How long have you been together? Hrm 3 years in May
What are you wearing right now?: comfy pants from Victoria Secret and tank top
Would you have sex before marriage?: ..plead fifth
Do you smoke?: nope
Do you drink?: on occasion but if you asked me last Friday morning, Id say never again
What are your favorite colors?: purple, green, blues
What is your favorite animal?: cat
Do you have any birthmarks?: nope
Have you ever been slapped?: yes
Are you shy or outgoing?: shy at first typically
Do you trust people? Way to easily
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: yup
Would you ever sky dive?: would love to !
Do you like to dance?: yes and miss the clubs in Denver :
Have you ever been dumped?: hasnt everyone once?
Do you have a cell phone or pager?: cell phone yes but they are evil!
Who do you look up to?: would say my parents
Are you a role model?: Id like to be to my sisters but Ive had some rocky starts Im sure
What kind of jewelry do you wear?: engagement ring, tanzanite necklace, heart necklace from an ex, diamond earrings from patricks mom and the one stud left from him and my emerald ring that I got when I was 16 from my mom.
What do you have pierced? Ears triple, belly button
What do you want pierced?: nothing more
Do you prefer boxers or briefs? Boxers or boxer brief type of things on occasion
Have you ever been played?: Im sure I have been
Do you get along with your parents?: being older ..yes
How do you vent your anger?: write in my journal..used to write poetry a lot..cry sometimes
Do you daydream a lot?: yep at work all the time
Do you have a lot of ex’s?: wellhandful? LOL
What do you want a tattoo of?: dolphin with waves type of tribal on my lower back
What is your favorite flower?: heather flower? No reallyits Gerbera Daisies
Have you ever been bitched out?: yes, some lady bitched me out in a parking lot not long ago..had me almost In tears.
Are you rude?: hopefully Im not?
What was the last compliment you received?: dont know..
Do you like getting dirty?: you mean mud wrestling? ..oh ..well I like to be outdoors so guess that can imply a yes.
Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: Innie
Are you flexible?: kinda used to be more so when younger
What is your heritage?: Irish / Czech
What does your hair look like right now?: growing out long for wedding
Could you ever be a vegetarian?: yep, had a brief time where I was
When was your last real heartbreak?: plead fifth on this ..
When was the last time you were drunk?: last Thursday nightvodka & cranberry
How many rings until you answer the phone? dont answer? No usually as fast as I can run to it
Have you ever been skinny-dipping?: uh yes
Do you look more like your mother or father?: hard to tell..some say mom now that Im older
Do you cry a lot?: Im a lil emotional
If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: an arm Id imagine
What phrase do you use most on the phone?: nevermind, whatever ?
Are you the romantic type?: yes I can be
What do you like most about your body?: green eyes
What do you like least about your body?: stomach and guess my legs
When was the last time you threw up?: refer back to my drunk night question
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes? Brunettes ..darker hair usually
What do the shoes you last wore look like?: black sandals
Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: maybe once I have my abs back
What about cleavage?: well..tank tops count ?
How are you feeling right now?: lost, bit lonely even tho Im not and just bleh
When was the last time you were at a party?: not really a party but a bbq at Patricks boss last Thurs.
Have you ever given a lap dance?: fifth
What do you sleep in?: birthday suit
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: yes
What is one of your good qualities? Id do anything for my friends, have a big heart I think.
What do you drive?:
Are you more of a mama or daddy’s child?: no ones anymore

Oh, one last thing…people started getting their wedding invites. Guess things are really rolling now eh?

well back to the boredom, the somewhat lonely nite, the confused thoughts in my head…

hugs
heather

no surf in colorado

Thursday, May 13th, 2004

Song i’m listening to from Bowling for Soup on this random cd I made. Such a random title for this entry….doesn’t really apply to anything i’m writing here but oh well!

*bounces around from too much caffeine*

So, Patrick has this week off now that he’s back in town and they are all down with their software push. This morning started off slow and I was waiting so patiently for the roach coach to come by so I could grab a Mt. Dew when Lorraine asks me if I was expecting someone. I’m like “huh” and turn around. There standing before me is Patrick with Starbucks…so the day did get off to a decent start! Mmmm white chocolate mocha!

Now to finish my billing in a timely, but always distracted manner. Wednesday & Thursday are like my invoicing from hell days but more so since we are short staffed and instead of billing sometimes I’m stuck doing everyone else’s job. Luckily yesterday was the good news in 3’s day!!! We heard back from the lady we were interested in for the dispatcher position that so badly needed filled so Lorraine can do her actual job and I can actually do my job..imagine that! She decided to take the position and because our sales manager liked her so much he gave in to her needing to only work a partial week so she’ll be here Monday-Thursday then we’ll fill in for her on Friday’s. Then we also got word from 2 techs that have decided to join on. Looks like things are going to land right in place just in time for the summer! So yesterday after getting all this good news, I was sent on a beer run while doing my bank drop. Came back and decided Friday’s would be “Foster’s Fridays” It’s not so bad drinking a beer at the end of a long day and yapping with your co-workers or even getting some needed work done.

off subject – my cute lil quail friends have been especially friendly today and pecking at my window all morning… I so need to get picture of these 2.

Anyhow, so work is showing light at the end of the tunnel, wish other tunnels would become clearer.

I brought up to Patrick yesterday about Memorial Day weekend. Typically that is my birthday weekend but this year my b-day is Thursday before the weekend..oh well still close enough. God, I’ll be old..or so it feels. Thankfully, everyone seems to think I’m only 19 or 20 and cards me.

I wanted to go up to Oregon and asked him to call his parents to see if they wouldn’t mind us visiting for the weekend. Over Thanksgiving last year we went to visit the jeweler his parents use. Let me just say his mom has some amazing jewelry from this guy and after losing one of my diamond studs (long story and believe it’s in a journal entry here somewhere) we went in to find out how much it’d cost to replace the one I lost instead of taking and buying a new set. Well, in the end Patrick had too good of taste and my one replacement was a TON of money….pretty much more then buying me a new pair. His mom, cannot believe she did this, gave me a pair of her diamond earrings to replace mine and then I have the other stud in my top hole since I have my ears triple pierced. I am so lucky to have such an amazing soon to be mother in-law. (cannot even explain what a nice woman she is and am looking forward to my mom’s (both step and real) to meet her.
Soooo, back to my story of Memorial day. During that trip we looked at wedding bands for Patrick and found some really nice ones. One in particular but way out of my range …another that looked great, more in my price range and he liked. So, the time is coming for me to buy his wedding band and I told him I’d rather buy it from their jeweler then buy from some store in the mall. So for Memorial Day we are driving up to Oregon and we’ll pick out his wedding band. I’m just looking forward to getting away and I love going up there to visit.

Crap…almost 11:00 and I haven’t gotten much done on this billing so until later ~~

Oh oh ..one last thing!!!! They FINALLY approved the purchase orders for the house and will be working on fixing it now. I’ve been sad that nothing new has been done lately and was starting to worry about the timing of the house being built and the wedding and all our expenses.

Btw, do you ever feel like you live 2 seperate lives?

Sings “red magic marker” song. hrmm ok as I typed this…”i’m a slave for you” by brittney nasty spears just came on my random songs cd. Now i’m singing to that! err did I just say that? no no I wasn’t singing honest :)

~heather

ROFL

Tuesday, May 11th, 2004

Thanks Dora for this laugh :)

Two casino workers were waiting at a craps table when a very attractive blonde woman arrived and bet twenty thousand dollars on a single roll the dice.

She said “I hope you don’t mind, but I feel much luckier when I’m completely nude.” With that she stripped down, rolled the dice and yelled “mama needs new clothes!”

Then she hollered “Yes! Yes! I won! I won!” She jumped up and down and
hugged each of the dealers. Then she picked up all the money and her clothes and departed.

The dealers stared at each other dumfounded. Finally one of them asked, “What did she roll?” The other answered, “I don’t know, I thought you were watching.”

Moral of the story: Not all blondes are dumb, but ALL men are men!

hugs
~heather/sav

invites done!

Tuesday, May 11th, 2004

Wedding Invites are DONE DONE DONE! Since I’ve had a hard time sleeping lately, I decided to put that no sleep thing to good use and get all my invites done. I’m missing like 2 or 3 addresses but the rest are all stamped, sealed and ready to mail today! I’m just relieved they are finally done. Everyone keeps saying “no turning back now” *laughs*
Patrick flies back in today, originally supposed to get in this afternoon but it’s been pushed back to 11:30 ..yes that’s at night! Guess it’ll be another late night for me and hopefully I can take a nap after work so the drive is a safe one.

Going to cut this short, owner is in town and I’m kind of swamped, maybe will write more later. Oh, took this little quiz thing for fun and well I guess me going back to school for graphic design / web design fits what this says I’d be good at!

One last thing – I haven’t written about WoW for a while and it’s not for lack of playing. I’ll update about that at some point….just that’s a little too much showing my geek side so I don’t say here but instead post on graffes board.


Extroverted (E) 73.33% Introverted (I) 26.67%
Imaginative (N) 64.71% Realistic (S) 35.29%
Emotional (F) 67.74% Intellectual (T) 32.26%
Easygoing (P) 51.43% Organized (J) 48.57%
Your type is: ENFP
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lonely nights

Sunday, May 9th, 2004

Sitting here tonight alone, for it feels like the first time since moving out here.
To read more of my long ramblings on a lonely night…

Background:
Most people know that when I moved to Nevada to be with Patrick, I left my family, friends and a state that I had told most I would never leave. Colorado, for me, was my home. Even during the years of living in Kansas, I never felt like Kansas was my home. I went to school there but every day I had thoughts of going back to Colorado or looking forward to my next vacation that would lead me out there. All my friends knew I would end up back there and some were surprised at the end of each summer when I’d show back up, sometimes 1 week before school started, instead of actually staying there.

I felt like I lived 2 lives at times. There was my high school life in Kansas, consuming myself with my swimming, basketball, working and my friends there. Then there was my escape to Colorado, where I had my swimming, lifeguarding and friends. I enjoyed parts of both of these lives and am happy that I even had the opportunities I did when younger. In the end, my heart and feel like my soul was drawn back to Colorado. With some years of college behind, some good jobs, some bad jobs behind, a lot of growing up behind me and meeting what I think is the greatest thing to come into my life, I moved to Nevada to be with him. I left the place I thought I’d never leave, a place I told everyone I could never leave…. all for love.

Over the past, now 2 years, I’ve only been away from him twice for any length of time. The first, a trip to Chicago for a Ski and Snowboard show that I was doing for the Lake Tahoe Visitors Authority. At the time I was working for a resort in Tahoe in the Marketing & Group sales dept. I was in Chicago for about 5 days for this expo and luckily I spent most of my time working and out bar/club hopping with a girl that worked for a ski resort in Tahoe. It kept me busy and my mind off the fact that I was sleeping alone every night in the hotel. When I came home, I had emails at work the next week with pictures of engagement rings and asking me what I liked. I knew that he definitely missed me then. The second time I have been away was this summer over July. I flew to Colorado for a long weekend, to go to our family reunion and also work on initial wedding planning. It was a very busy weekend again and kept my thoughts away from the fact that once again I was sleeping alone (unless you count the oodles of kittens that swarmed my bed every night). Over these last 2 years though, I was the one who left him alone in Nevada but tonight, here I am alone.

It’s a weird feeling to drop him off at the airport and come home and look over at his chair, see the computer on and realize he’s not going to be here. It’s only until Tuesday so it’s not like he’s gone long, just the first time he’s been gone. I figure I’ll work late tomorrow and try to play the never ending catch up game there. It’s kind of a nice quiet but I’m not good at the alone thing. After all these years of really having someone by my side, even a day or two seems to be empty.

So, why is he away you ask? He’s off in Montana, in some no name town installing software. His new team he’s working on really has given him a lot of new opportunities and he of course jumped to finally go to a site and see his hard work in action. It’s not exactly something exotic like he had hoped, like Europe, Asia, South America or wherever but it’s a nice break. He’s probably one of the hardest workers I’ve ever met and so driven at times it maddening. This Friday we have a dinner thing at this nice spa resort ending their latest software push.

I want to wish all the mother’s today a Happy Mothers Day! I called both my mom’s and then I really dumbed out by not calling my dad yesterday for his birthday so I told him happy late bday. He laughed and told me that he’s not so good at mine so it’s ok. I still felt bad but yep he’s horrible at remembering mine.

I’ll never forget my 21st birthday. It’s supposed to be one of those nights to remember, and god was it. I was living in Boulder, lifeguarding at the time, enjoying the start of the summer. My boyfriend at the time was younger then I by a few months so couldn’t go out for the 21st birthday thing so my guy friends at the pool offered to take me out to Denver. (condition was that I ended up at his house at the end of the night, which I did but very loudly and after knocking the snowboards down that were against the wall) but anyhow….that day I went to the DMV and got my new ID saying I was 21 and then went home to get my new clothes on for the night. I hadn’t heard from my dad yet so I called him up and he just asked me how I was doing and what I was up to. My response “well I’m getting ready to go out for my 21st birthday”. Silence then “oh I was going to call you later, forgot you’d be going out for the night”. Uh huh ….sure dad. Oh well, it was a great night and I’m sure everyone blanks out on birthdays from time to time.

I just realized I jump around a lot on my thoughts and topics for writing here. From missing Patrick, to Happy Mothers Day, to my 21st birthday. Not to mention, I ramble like no other…you should hear me irl (in real life, for those not down with the computer lingo).

On other news – I just wanted to say that I have this new cd by Amanda Marshall called “Everybody’s Got a Story” and damn is it good!! On her website if you click on http://www.amanda-marshall.com/disc03_Everybodys.html you can hear lil parts of the songs from the cd I bought but I’m thinking I NEED to buy the rest of her cd’s. I just love her sound. You can access her site here: http://www.amanda-marshall.com/intermission.html and then can look at pics, other discographies with samples of those songs etc. My favorite songs are “Red Magic Marker” and “Sunday Morning After”. I first heard her on Plurnation (www.set2rise.com) and then had to beg the great guy who clued me into plurnation to find out who it was. I went out the other night looking for the cd but of course couldn’t find it locally so had to order it. The result of my order ended up with buying 2 other cds. One “Ultra Dance 05” and “Moe”. I have such a variety of music interest’s hehe. In the end I’m in love with this chic’s cd and can’t stop playing it ..honestly it’s like on never ending repeat now.

Since I’m on a poetry kick and even more so after staring at the oodles of poetry books at Barnes and Noble I went on the hunt to find one that seemed to fit my mood for the evening. The one below caught my attention. I swear if I had a ton of money to blow at a bookstore I’d so buy half of the poetry section. Patrick actually ended up buying me a fantasy book though, not poetry book in the end. It’s a prequel to the Mists of Avalon book that I LOVED. I’m so damn picky on the whole fantasy/sci-fi section. I honestly can’t stand most of that stuff. I love to read and I really do read just about every different type of writing. I’ve had a hard time liking fantasy and I still don’t like sci-fi. Some of the few authors I actually do like are Terry Goodkind, Terry Brooks, , Robert Jordan, Marion Zimmer Bradley….was trying to read off some from the bookcase there hehe.

Anyhooooooooooo, to stop my never ending rambling of aloneness here I’ll just leave with this poem about being alone.

to sum it all up ….

The Dream
Poetry of Edna St. Vincent Millay

Love, if I weep it will not matter,
And if you laugh I shall not care;
Foolish am I to think about it,
But it is good to feel you there.

Love, in my sleep I dreamed of waking, –
White and awful the moonlight reached
Over the floor, and somewhere, somewhere,
There was a shutter loose, — it screeched!

Swung in the wind, — and no wind blowing! –
I was afraid, and turned to you,
Put out my hand to you for comfort, –
And you were gone! Cold, cold as dew,

Under my hand the moonlight lay!
Love, if you laugh I shall not care,
But if I weep it will not matter, –
Ah, it is good to feel you there!

lastly
Saw this on another friends LJ and thought it was pretty cool…

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