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Ok, i’m not one for these goofy things but eeps!

So today is get your sales/use tax done day because tomorrow it’s due and the controller in San Jose doesn’t work Friday’s soooo I have to get it done before she leaves today to make sure it matches up with her. Luckily for me, technology makes this easy by having a pdf form online where I just fill it out and the nice thing does my calculations and wala I just print it out.

Yesterday was Sushi day with Liana, who I used to work with here. Ed and I went to meet up with her after saying forever that we needed to get together for lunch. I miss Sushi days with her. For a while, we were going once a week during our lunch. The guys in there know what to make for us and everything. She did mention a job opp. for me at her new workplace but not sure how my qualifications stack up against others. I asked for more information from her on it but really I just got my raise here so i’m not sure..although the other job would be my ideal job. Like I said though, i’m not sure if I know enough yet for yet but hey I can figure out anything I put my mind to it seems with the web design aspects and next fall I have a ton of great classes in computer animation, flash, scripting etc.

Sounds like Patrick has to work this weekend some which is going to kind of suck. We really don’t do much on the weekends but it’s supposed to be in the 90’s possibly and i’d love to head up to Tahoe and go shopping around the lake or window shopping at least. Just nice to get out, heck even might get some sun so I don’t blend in with the walls. Guess we’ll see whether he gets called in and when.

I still have a bunch of movies I want to see but they are mostly of the chic flick type so doubt I will see them until they are rentals and then incoming late fees at Blockbuster. They sure do know how to rip you off easily.

Oh, so my sister the other night tells me that she has a website up and to check my guestbook for her link. I told her i’d check it out and so after the phone call I went to look. She’s REALLY into computers which at times has gotten her into more trouble but at the same time i’m happy she’s interested in something like that. Think at times she really hates school which makes me sad, I just loved school (i’m a freak). Anyhow, she made a site with Xanga, which i’m noticing is the teeny bopper crowd site community or something. She was direct linking my pics so I told her what that was but that i’d give her a folder on my own webserver to store pictures for her. I’m just trying to tell her to get her school work done before she fiddles with the web and being online. School is important and eventually she can take web classes at school my step-mom said. They have her enrolled next year in some basic computer classes she has to take before the more advanced but hopefully this will become a good thing and she’ll enjoy that part of school at least.

Well, going to eat lunch..i’m starving marvin!

~hugs
heather - sav

Mondays suck ..or do they?  Everyone likes to bitch about Monday’s so why not jump on the bandwagon.  I woke up this morning a little late but it became worse when < ?xml:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />Patrick decided to hop in the shower for a “quick shower” which sadly even I can take quicker showers and even shave!  I figure while he’s in there I’ll put some food in a bag ready to take to work (trying to eat healthier but eating some snacks like fruit throughout the day instead of just not eating until dinner ..which is pretty much my norm).  Finally I get to take my turn in the shower, yes I probably could’ve gone to the guest shower but it’s ok.  Anyhow, I get ready in record time and looks like I won’t be running late when I realize my keys are MIA.  I’m sitting there half laughing at myself for losing my keys (another pretty normal thing for me)  and half getting frustrated because I’m soon to be late for work.  I’m calling Patrick’s cell as he just left thinking maybe he’ll know where they are or even worse I left them in his car over the weekend.  Ring ring ring …keeps ringing…no answer!!! Arrggg ..i’m starting to get in panic mode at this point thinking I really did lose them.  I cleaned house yesterday morning and who knows what I did with them.  All the while, I’m hearing in my head the voices of everyone that has teased me in the past for my blonde ditzyness of losing keys or locking them in cars etc.  By some odd reason, I decide to pick up the stack of papers on the box of invitations I’m supposed to mail this week and they fall out …WALA keys!! I call up Ed – Project Manager at work and explain I am on my way but I had a slight key disappearance.  For a while there I honestly though I’d have to call him to even come pick me up. 

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Arrive at work, kind of flustered and then see this pile of random papers all over my desk, on my chair, on my keyboard and am thinking WHAT THE HELL?!?! I sure didn’t leave it like that over the weekend.  I start sorting through all the junk and piling it up here or there and everywhere.  “Organized Chaos” is what what I’d like to call my office at times…and today was definitely one of those days.  I try to leave everyday by organizing my stuff and getting things ready for the next day so I can tackle them bright and early.  For some reason I work a lot better in the morning and as the day goes on, my thoughts shift to home and WoW (I’m such an addict) and whatever else is bothering me which is a lot it seems lately.  *grumbles*   I had been told last week I’d be having a meeting at 10:00 with my project & sales managers so being the pessimist lately at work I figured it was impending doom or something. 

*cues happy fluffy music*

This is where Monday morning gone bad gets better!  I got a raise ..yes finally, a raise!  Now, it’s not as much as I asked for in the last meeting when asked what I wanted BUT it’ll do and they were very happy with my past few weeks performance and willingness to help out (which I don’t know how that’s something new but hey).  They said thanks and that I’ve done a great job and they love the work I do here etc.  Finally, I feel somewhat good about this place. 

*ends happy fluffy music*  (what is happy fluffy music? I just realized I have no clue what the hell that means but in my head I hear “I’m a Barbie girl” playing.  (scary thought)    Wouldn’t you hate to be up in my head at the moment? 

So this great guy enlightened me on this radio station:  http://www.set2rise.com/   It’s a streaming station and you can just Yahoo IM them requests of songs you want to hear.  They have volunteer dj’s and are wonderful.  If they don’t have the song you can send them it or what not.  My favorite time to listen is Friday nights and that DJ is way cool and plays great music. I tend to have them in the background while playing WoW lately. 

Speaking of music:  I’m curious what everyone listens to.  I am so random at what I listen to.  People I’m sure think I’m a freak when one minute I have country playing then punk then billboard hits etc.

…just realized I need to get back to working on something before I get death calls from our San Jose office. 

*bounces around, at least I got a raise!*

 ~sav or heather

So, i’m one of those moods and was off looking at poetry.  If people don’t know this yet, i’m a huge poetry fan and have books of the stuff with lil markers of my favorites.  I also write some when in the mood but it’s been a while since i’ve done that.  Typically it was because I was sad, heart broken or angry…you know the bad emotions versus writing when happy.  I used to have some on my web page but after emails and comments in my guestbook about how “dark and sad” my poetry was I didn’t know if that was a good thing or bad.  I took it all down and have yet to remake the poetry pages.  I have books from high school still stored away with my writings. 

Writing used to be my outlet when younger and I guess that was also before the net and well life becoming a happier place rather then full of hurt.  I don’t go into my childhood years much on here, mainly because I don’t care to look back and play the “pity me” thing.  I was told “something good always comes from the bad” and I truely believe that.  I’ve always thought that no matter what happens something eventually works itself out and i’m a stronger person from it.   I’ve gone back to visit teachers and friends in the past, knowing what things were like during the divorce, custody battle etc. and are suprised.  It feels wierd to hear someone tell me “you’re such a strong person”  because I really don’t feel strong sometimes nor did I feel that way when going through all that. 

I am still amazed at where I ended up in life, not exactly the road I would’ve chosen but it’s a road full of many emotions but long gone are the hurtful years i’ve felt in the past or so I can only hope.  Below are some cool poems I found today while taking my lil break from reality and work. 

After reading a question earlier from a friend and having a conversation about love, I felt the need to look for poems.  Nothing is ever as descriptive as a poem when it comes to love for me. Although, I’m still unsure of how to answer her question:  How do you know if being in love will last forever?    This is after I said there’s different kinds of love “being in love” and “loving someone”.  I love my family, friends, even some of my ex’s will hold a love in my heart but in such a different way then my current love, my fiance.  So, how do you explain to someone that “being in love” doesn’t always last but enjoy it while you have it or do you just go for the optimistic side and say it that they will never fall out of being in love and every day will be just as amazing as the one prior? 

Onto the poems!

Alfred, Lord Tennyson (1809–1892)
Tears, Idle Tears

  Tears, idle tears, I know not what they mean,
Tears from the depth of some divine despair
Rise in the heart, and gather to the eyes,
In looking on the happy Autumn-fields,
And thinking of the days that are no more.

  Fresh as the first beam glittering on a sail,
That brings our friends up from the underworld,
Sad as the last which reddens over one
That sinks with all we love below the verge;
So sad, so fresh, the days that are no more.

  Ah, sad and strange as in dark summer dawns
The earliest pipe of half-awakened birds
To dying ears, when unto dying eyes
The casement slowly grows a glimmering square;
So sad, so strange, the days that are no more.

  Dear as remembered kisses after death,
And sweet as those by hopeless fancy feigned
On lips that are for others; deep as love,
Deep as first love, and wild with all regret;
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The Dream
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Love, if I weep it will not matter,

And if you laugh I shall not care;

Foolish am I to think about it,

But it is good to feel you there.

Love, in my sleep I dreamed of waking,

White and awful the moonlight reached

Over the floor, and somewhere, somewhere

There was a shutter loose- it screeched!

Swung in the wind- and no wind blowing-

I was afraid and turned to you,

Put out my hand to you for comfort-

And you were gone!  Cold as the dew,

Under my hand the moonlight lay!

Love, if you laughI shall not care,

But if I weep it will not matter-

Ah, it is good to feel you there

So I’m sitting here at work watching it rain down on me.  I have my moments where I take a break and a breather and this is definitely one for me today.  I’ve had a horrible week here and I don’t see a sunny sky in sight.  I am swamped (yes, I know I should be working atm but instead I’m writing to vent and get things off my chest before I end up in tears like yesterday).  I know you aren’t supposed to cry at work but after everyone left for lunch I just couldn’t help it.  Things have been building up despite my best efforts to smile on the outside and look happy and helpful.  I’m normally a very happy and helpful person J I am one of those people that will drop what I’m doing to help 99% of the time and then smile and laugh while doing it.  I look at the people I’m with and they don’t appreciate one thing I do nor do I think they will ever think I do a good job or appreciate me.  We have a new lady and I know they appreciate her…it’s VERY obvious and even so obvious some of the guys I work with have made comments to me regarding the situation.  *ends her ranting about work, since that’s the typical LJ thing to do I’m told*

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Today at < ?xml:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />1:00 I get to register for classes and god what am I getting myself into for next fall?? 

So this is my schedule.. as you can see I’m loading myself (possibly in hopes to get into something I enjoy someday or at least use my skills at my current workplace..maybe then I’ll be appreciated?)

Monday 7-9:45 Computer graphic design Intro

Tuesday 5:30-6:45 Web Animation

Wednesday 7-9:45 Electronic Layout and Topography

Thursday 5:30-6:45 Web Animation

                7:00-9:45 Computer Animation

Online Course – Web Scripting

Am I nuts?  I’m thinking of adding some marketing classes in with all my design classes eventually but want to get these done and closer to this degree. 

I know these are overdone some but I’ve never done one in my LJ so figured I’d fill hey, I’m bored.

Nicknames: Murf, legs, smurf….
Height: 5′7 ½

Nationality: Irish/Czech
Job: Accountant ….but some would say closer to office manager, computer fix it upper etc etc. U name it I probably do it here. 
What style of Clothes do you Wear: summer time – lots of skirts and tank tops, luv flowery stuff.  Winter – jeans, cargos, whatever J Work – business casual fun fun. (I miss jeans at work)
Siblings’ names:  Justin, Christina, Molly
Do you have any Pets: Merlin the terror cat
How many Languages do you Speak: took Spanish in hs. That count for something?
Do you Collect Anything?: cat things when I was a kid but I outgrew that thankfully J I love fairys but have none and I’m a huge Dr. Seuss fan and Pooh! Favorite Things
Fruit:  banana…
Soap: bath & body sweat pea is my fav lately
Candy: m&ms
Disney Movie: Winnie the Pooh
Restaurant: Garibaldis

Actor/Actress: Julia Roberts (yes, I’m girly) and Sean Connery (damn sexy for an old man)
Animal: cat of course
Radio Station: what’s the radio?  If I listen to it, country station or 80s rock are my fav mainly because I’m at work and those don’t typically upset the coworkers.
Drink: Mt. Dew or Caramel Machiatto from Starbucks!
Thing to do on the Weekend: Play WoW, check out the house building, movies, sleep!!!
Number: no fav numbers.
Characteristic about Yourself: Scar on my forehead that you can sometimes see /sighs and the lovely scar on my tongue / hole from biting it as a lil kid. J
Sport: Swimming was my fav to participate in and bball, like triathlons, watch hockey, ncaa basketball – rock chalk jayhawk ku, football - donkeys
Movie of all Time: Grease (I’m such a girl)

Perfume/Cologne: Chance by Chanel I got from Patrick for xmas, Victoria Secret Dream (I think) from my mom,  Ralph Lauren Romance mmm
Sesame Street Character: Big Bird 

Necessities in life:
Best quality in a friend: honesty and trust
Biggest crush: Plead fifth ..I had many
Advice ever given to you:  Something good always comes from the bad – Terri, step-mom

Dumbest thing you’ve done:  10 minutes says it all, I’m sure my good friends know what that is.

Fondest memory of you and your friends: Cruising the Fe with Rain J and the music tapes we’d make to play while out there. 

Scariest thing that’s ever happened while with friends: Getting pulled over with Rain on way home from a party in another town, she was trying to get me home in time for my curfew and I had met this hot ass guy and wanted to hang out with him….OOPS. She got a speeding ticket for over 100 and I was late for curfew.  Parents didn’t want me in the same car with her for a while.

Weirdest food you like: Nothing weird about it, just love Mexican food J and jalapenos.

THINGS
Things you like in the opposite sex: They keep you confused, frustrated, happy all at the same time. 
Things you hate about the opposite sex: They think with one brain, ok women do that also but hrm…they don’t listen.  They have selective listening skills like no other.

Thing you want to be doing right now:  home sleeping I think or cuddling.
Thing you get picked on most about:   hrm lots but I’m a girly girl, blonde but have this hippy nature side of me that people like to make fun of.

Thing you most regret: Getting emotional so easily sometimes.
Thing you want to be remembered for: Being a good friend and caring.
One thing you hope you do before you die: have a family, see Europe

Looking ahead
If you could have any Occupation: graphic design / web design /marketing somewhere J
What’s Your Dream Car: mazda 6 currently I want badly but I’ve always wanted a 69 stingray corvette
If you could Live Anywhere: in a log cabin in the mountains prefer colorado
What Age do you want to get Married: well I used to say 26 and I’m damn close, 27 I will be.
How many Kids do you Want: 2 but maybe compromise for 3 ? J

Things i’ve done:
Given Money to a Bum: yes, I’m so nice

Wished upon a star: too many times but I think it must’ve been a bad star
Laughed until you cried: Yes many times ..I laugh a lot.
Gotten in a Car Accident: Yes, totaled a car only a few weeks out of drivers ed when I was 16.  I never wanted to drive again.
Gone out in public in your PJs: Yes J
Kept a secret from everyone: yes
Done something out of character: Yes, to many times and lately
Cried at a chick flick: Yes, hell I cry for extreme home makeover lol
Done something stupid to impress your crush: Stupid at the time no, now yes?

Lil tidbits
Person who knows the Most about You:   Sarah knows a lot, Rain, Patrick of course J

Who do you talk to on the Phone the Most: Patrick and then my parents ..probably drive them nuts
Furthest You’ve been away from home: where I’m at now..Nevada
Do you get along with your Parents: More now that I’m older of course
Vanilla or Chocolate: Chocolate of course
Would you rather be Hot or Cold: Cold..hate being warm.
If a movie was made about your life what would it be named?:  Murphy’s law strikes again and again and again!

So, today we went out to do our usual weekend drive to look at the house and we are all excited because we have actual glass windows, some insulation and some siding up. Then as we are pulling past it, i’m snapping pictures of it from every angle of course I made Patrick stop as something didn’t look right. The windows on the side of the house where the master bath and such was on didn’t look right. We have acrylic blocks for a window by the bathtub and they were definitely not there. So, after staring at it we decided to go to the sales office and talk to Patty (sales lady) and tell her our concern. I pulled out the floorplan they had there and said “i think they have left off our optional masterbath or did our windows wrong” . We get home and look at our pics and it further.

I call up Patty and tell her that I think they definitely have things wrong after looking at the pics. She tells me she went to look at it and it’s definitely not the optional masterbath with seperate shower and tub. I ask what they are going to do about it and guess she emailed the people and made phone calls to tell them to stop building.

They have to jackhammer our foundation up and redo the piping. They also have to redo our framing on that side of the house and of course repour our foundation there after they fix the piping. She’s going to call this week and let us know what they plan on doing and how long it’ll set us back.

We were all excited when we first starting talking to her because she told us they finally had a date for us and it was END OF MAY. Well my birthday is end of May, so I was totally thrilled. Now it’ll be pushed back a few weeks for them to fix this

/sighs and cries

Everyone keeps telling me they are happy that I had a good eye and made Patrick stop to look and also that we caught it before it went even further. I just wish I had noticed when they had our foundation poured or say a week ago when we looked at our framing. I guess some couples don’t go out and look at the houses at all, i’m sure as hell glad we do every week.

~heather